what happens when the crazies come out

if any of you are a girl or know a girl (in other words, everyone!), then you know that girls can have issues with craziness.

guys can be crazy, too; i won’t be overly sexist on this point.  it’s just that i’ve found that girls tend towards the crazies a little more than boys do.
be it hormones, that extra X chromosome, or whatnot, it’s just a part of life that we’ve all got to deal with.

this morning, i had an extra dose.

i was driving down 183 toward a job interview.
yes, an interview!  “yahooooo-hoo-hoooie!!!” right?

not really.  you see…i had an 8 am wake-up call from johnny, the hated plumber who’s taking over a week to put in my new hot water heater, leaving emily and me to travel for showers.
and last week, i went to hccsa to be keli’i’s “grandfriend” with my mom and dad.  i’m like a stinkin celebrity walking in the halls of that school with whispers of “miss horvath!!!!” coming from every room i pass.  i visited with a friend and was literally knocked over with hugs from former students and i had one resounding thought:

i. miss. teaching.                    a lot!

i miss the kids.   i miss the light bulbs that go off.  i miss getting pictures and smiles and laughs.  i miss my name being mispronounced.  i miss little boys wanting to marry me.
i miss it all.

so, this morning, on my way to the marketing interview, with johnny on my mind and kids in my heart, i was a little grumbly.

one thought kept creeping into my head: i don’t want to be a man!!!
i sat there in my manly suit, going on a man interview, for a man job, with man hours.
hmph.

crazy???!?!  yes.  hahaha.  for sure.

other than the fact that they had i am legend playing in the lobby and i was close to tears at the dog dying when they finally brought me in, the interview was fine.  the job actually sounded like a lot of fun and i think i’d like it.
but i still don’t want to be a man.
and i still miss my kiddos.

with so much uncertainty in my life, this is reassuring to know.  unless gabriel shows up to tell me otherwise, i won’t be taking the marketing job or anything like it and i’ll do this and that until i find something that fits.

and…to help ease my crazies and his, apparently, we get crafty. =)

last week, we did a little origami with emily and tonight, i pulled out an architecture stamp set that my nannie bought us over 20 years ago.

for your viewing pleasure…

chris’ artwork:

my attempt

our origami

and a reproduction of a money basket chris made at work